'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

-lyrics by relient k (who i am hates who i've been)


slowly will get through this, they say its just a passing cloudd.

yawnn. so tired from the tiring day at church. had anniversary practices. haha. going to have this musical why on 8nov. i personally think its not so much of a musical. hahha. anywayy youth was great yesterday, 3 souls saved and i got to follow up on one. hhah. okay i'll try, not really my forte. haha. after that went for the drum forum which was quite fun. hhah. it went crazier at the later part. hahah. so after that off to supper with joel at jalan kayu. hahah. super hungryyyy. nice prata and nice cafe to chill out there. hahahaa. good thing managed to get the last bus home. hahh. coz we got really stuck at sengkang LRT station. HAHAHA keep going in circles. lol. sigh. super blur. oh wells. on to week 5 of my 16 week programme for six pacs. hahha. anyway had this super random dream. haha. i dreamt i kept mailing lichu slices of cake after i cut them. HAHAHA okayy. weird ezraa. i want food.............

slowly letting go, it keeps getting better.. i hope

i really love this song now. sometimes i feel like this. hhaha. i hate the long days and lonely nights with only just thoughts and feelings of you.. i need to run..


Paramore - The Only Exception
{Verse 1}
When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin'

{Chorus}
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

{Verse 2}
Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

{Chorus}
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

{Bridge}
I've got a tight grip on reality, but I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

{Chorus}
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
[X2]

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing


on the flip side, today was a really blur day for me, heard abt the joke of someone ordering teh ping xiu(hot).haha. uncle was like how to make?? ice tea but hot?? hahah. and i just embarrassed myself twice. once was at the mrt station, i saw the train come, made a rush for the train. the train inside was super empty, i was like wow.. too good to be true at 6plus.. yeah i was rite. it was just a service train and just zoomed past, ended up sitting down again laughing to myself. hahh. the second one was at orchard central. with the new doors being all glass and the building being glass too i stood infront of a big glass panel thinking it was the exit. moved front and down, left and right. i was like okayyyyy. then i saw it being obstructed. so i looked to the side! AHH must be there . okay so i did the same thing. and later looked up to see the sign of a man running to a door. i think it must be the emergency exit. gaahh. went off chuckling to myself again as i see someone else doing exactly the same thing as me after i just left. HAHAHHAHA awww. sighhh

well well, oct is ending soon! hahah. these past few weeks have been really packed and abit of a rollar coaster. hahaaa. okayy. happy 20th birthday straw head! haha. best wished from sam and straw bro. lol.

waiting for my SAT results to come out soon which is on the 29th. haha. really excited. well and there's a party this fri! weee!! hahaha. randomly made up while talking online. hahaha. intimate halloween party? haha. dunno if can get alot of ppl. well. last day of leave and its back to work for the next 3 days.sighhh.

i'm geting by, its starts to get easier day by day rite?

long days and longer nights.. i feel like crap now. i should sleep..bad words are coming into my brain.. sigh.