well, yesterday turned out to be prettyy fun. haha. went for gerry's wedding which initially didn't plan on going, so the wedding was kinda nice with all the items except the stupid translator, just irritates me when there's a chinese translation going on. welll so it too even longer, the food ain't bad. better then neo garden i think. HAHA okayy all my dessert was taken. damnn sadd pls. well anywayy met friends who i never saw for a long time, especially anna. so anywayy after the wedding we (youth) took cars and went to island creamy which was just a few mins away. WOO! MUD PIE MUD PIE! soo niceee plss. hahahaha. anyway after that we all headed down to marina square for pool and movie. haha. been a long time since i hanged out with the older youths man, reminds me of old times. well it was fun catching up and stufff.. anyway movie was new moon. omggg. i wanna see wad happens next onlyy. HAHAHAH. them movie was okay onlyy thoughh.

anyway, i feel so trapped, like in a glass prison,
i don't know how to express how i feel
its just a bittersweet feeling
i wish you can just see through me...

officially feels like shit..

i'm feeling so small.sighh.

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me.

haha. i belong to Jesus though. :)

-music: john mayer on repeat.

gaah. got to start finding work soon. haha. and i realise i need to start compiling a resume!! OH SIGH!! don't even know where to start. okayy i better start soon. sighh. need donuts.

5 more posts to 200; actually i think i reached it a long time ago. haha. but i deleted some old posts. hahaaaa.dang. everything seems to be going bad around me. things will definitely get better. things happening at work, friend and with the stupid insertitem name its draining.. well at least thats always God to take care of it. guess should be thankful to be brought up in a christian family where God is the focus, it helps now to know that there's someone you can always rely on and i feel quite blessed always. i think i can do so much more for Him though. i'm trying. thank you.


i'm running on empty, so drained.
am i thinking too much or will it really be different?
i feel like a zero.

-let the flames begin (paramore)

And I need you like a heart needs a beat


Music- silverstein cover -One republic (Apologise)

its only mon and i'm already flat out.. sighh. no cash too. going to be scrimping and doing whatever i can.well on the bright side at least i secured tickets for my first muse concert. :) :) YAYY!! hahah. today interval training was bad, had a stitch / cramp halfwayy and grrr ran so slow. shall run again tmr after the resistance trainingg. on another note, really can't wait to jam paramore with joel and a band.

-music in my head *misery business (paramore)


feels liberating to have said it
i hope it all turns out well
i treasure our friendship alot
hope to make it right.

went for smu matriculation.hoho. okayy. boring.. couldnt' leave the place though, haha, anyway saw some familiar faces and say hi and catch up a little. wee. back to camp after that.sigh. oh yeah. almost kena knocked down coz i thot it was the green man. hahahahahaha. thank God jenzus was there. lol. so blessed. okayyy



how how how?

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

-lyrics by relient k (who i am hates who i've been)


slowly will get through this, they say its just a passing cloudd.

yawnn. so tired from the tiring day at church. had anniversary practices. haha. going to have this musical why on 8nov. i personally think its not so much of a musical. hahha. anywayy youth was great yesterday, 3 souls saved and i got to follow up on one. hhah. okay i'll try, not really my forte. haha. after that went for the drum forum which was quite fun. hhah. it went crazier at the later part. hahah. so after that off to supper with joel at jalan kayu. hahah. super hungryyyy. nice prata and nice cafe to chill out there. hahahaa. good thing managed to get the last bus home. hahh. coz we got really stuck at sengkang LRT station. HAHAHA keep going in circles. lol. sigh. super blur. oh wells. on to week 5 of my 16 week programme for six pacs. hahha. anyway had this super random dream. haha. i dreamt i kept mailing lichu slices of cake after i cut them. HAHAHA okayy. weird ezraa. i want food.............

slowly letting go, it keeps getting better.. i hope